well im sorry last night i din write my blog because i was with my cousin-kathryn.well yesterday we have a great time together.yesterday when i woke up,she was next to my bed and she asked me to join her to tambun lost world.well i was blur because i just woke up and i didnt know bout it until she just reached my house and tell me bout it.well it is quite fun at there and knida bored because she is with her bf ah yip and im just a light bulb at there.i didnt really enjoy myself at there because i cant even sleep in the night and i everytime cried until i was tired and sleep.evry night i just keep thinking bout rahul and i was really sad how come both of us can be like this? wat the hell wrong with us?? i really very tired.i really really very tired.all i want is just a normal and long lasting relationship.thats all.well at tambun there, i keep giving excuse and i wnet 4 beach volleyball too because i dont because of me they cant have their own time being together.they knew it too and i saw them very happy.at there i keep thinking how nice if im with rahul playing.sure will be very nice but when i think back wat had happen i really sad and nearly cry in front of them.well then at night i went to her house 4 overnight and we plan to chat until the next morning but she was very tired so i didnt talk to her anymore instead i went to look 4 my fren.well i miss rahul a lot so i keep miss calling him and again we fight.
i cried a lot.then i cant stand it so i just hang up the phone and talk to my fren.my fren was very angry after hearing wat happen and asked me to delete all the message.i was crying more when i delete those message.but what can i do o? nothing right? den i cry so hard until my fren also feel so bad.well then i called back rahul and yar of course we continue our fight until 4 something in the morning...what the hell r we doing now?
tell me ar?????!!!!!!!!!!!!!what the hell r we fighting for?why we must keep quarrel on the phone?why ar???why everything cannot be solve?why?why?why? why o? every night also i sleep at 3,4 oclock because i really dont know what to do now and i really miss him a lot...for him i really cant leave eveything behind just to be with him but why o? why cant we be together ??? why wor?? then today i asked kathryn to help me go reload and he called me but i didnt answer because i was with my family and kathryn father.then my aunt wanted to go out and so we went out to kopitiam and i called him up because he is not feeling well and im very worry 4 him.last night also i can hear 4m his voice he is not feeling well but i dont have the chance to ask him.then i cried again at the kopitiam and he told me he wirtten a comment on his facebook profile and once i open it and i really felt very hurt.....what the hell i keep crying o?why wor?? he say as long im a good girl then he will still be with me but now what o???what the hell o now??? im his ex now!!!!!!! and that day he called up and he told me he is giving a last chance but now???? what the hell o now????
i really dont know now....what should i do now???tell me ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!what the hell should i do????what can i do somemore???what can i do somemore????tell me ar??!!!! i really do love him a lot and i really want to be with him forever but now? what o now? huh? tell me ar??? what o now???
"the most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or touched,
it must be felt by the heart.......................
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